February 2012
106 posts
it’s come down to something inevitable that i know was the product of mine. it’s fine i accept it but there must be a reason why i feel so messy inside.
people say the hardest part is moving on but maybe it’s also because i don’t want to. huge amount of self loathing follows but its greatly because i didn’t think his friendship actually meant that much to me.
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I’m the queen of making things awkward.
I really like you, and i regret many many things, things that make it impossible now to tell you how I feel about you. :’(
i really wished you like me enough to overlook everything. to forgive me for making those mistakes.
i promise i’ll make some better ones tomorrow.
I think I really intend to hide here for awhile. It’s my haven. Everyone around is bent over their work and not giving me a second look. I really need this after turbulent weeks that I’ve been having, with all the drunkardness and drama, not having the courage to ask the boy out, and friends in and out of the house.
Just for a few days, I don’t intend to talk to anyone. No one...
